Dissociation as a side effect of a medication I was on.
It is really hard to describe. It was as if I was a passenger within my own body and mind. I was watching myself do and say things with no feeling of presence or control.
That’s like depersonalization or derealization. For me, it was terrifying. I could hug my best friend but still feel like he was across the room/house. I have never felt more alone in my entire life than when going through those episodes. It was during these times that suicide seemed like a solid way out. I held through and over a few months it faded away.
Edit: I didn’t realize that both of the two ARE disassociation. Huh, I have disassociated before and never made the connection (no pun intended).
K-hole from too much ketamine will definitely do this.
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Did this make you question the concept of free will at the time or in general?
Not really. Just that consciousness is an incredibly complex thing that we don’t really understand.
That’s what lots of weed does to me.
I’d really like to experience this at some point because I can’t imagine what it’s like at all.
This is asklemmy material op
It took place on a weekday morning, in the late 2000s, I dropped my ex at her workplace, and then I start driving towards my own workplace. I need to take a tunnel downtown, there’s a traffic light just before the tunnel. The light is red, I wait. The light turns green, I go ahead, along with another car next to me.
Right behind me, in my mirror, I see police cars blocking the street at the traffic light. I’m the last car that went through the traffic light. No other cars can make it behind me.
I’m kinda freaking out. Why are the police cars blocking the way to the tunnel?
I then realize there are only two cars in the tunnel, mine, and the car just before me. No other car. At 9am. On a weekday. What the hell is going on?
I keep on driving, everything seems normal, apart from the complete lack of cars.
Eventually, I see the end of the tunnel, with police cars on either side of the road. And police officers making OBVIOUS signs with their arms : “Get the fuck out of there, quick, faster!”.
Me and the other car make it out of the tunnel, then In my mirror, again, I see 4 police cars blocking the way out of the tunnel.
I turned on the radio. Nothing about this event. I searched the news websites for the whole day, I didn’t find anything. I asked around, at work, in social media, nobody knew about this. I didn’t think of calling the police station. I never learned what the hell happened in this tunnel.
My bet is it was either a bomb threat, or they had to catch a known criminal in this tunnel, or maybe a collapse danger of some kind. But the fact that it didn’t make local news is mind boggling to me. I sometimes wonder if I dreamed this.
I’ve seen this exact thing posted before, was it you?
Yes it was me. I won’t re-write that story every time I get a similar question :)
I bet so. I have a couple similar strange stories and I’ve told them in multiple places but after the nth time retelling you just stick to the basic facts of what happened. No fluff.
What stuck out to me is cops were blocking it after you went through. Can you expand on this? Did they pull up after you and the other car entered or was it like they were already there and you somehow ‘drove past the car block without noticing’?
Often times stuff happens and just doesn’t make the news, nobody calls it in to them. And sometimes stuff is reported and they just don’t follow up on it or have interest. If it was something with the cities underground tunnel/piping network (especially likely if it was an in-ground tunnel) it could have been something going on in the entrance/exit to the tunnel system, or there could have been a severe gas/water/etc leak in that area.
Happened probably in 2009 or 2010, I really don’t recall if there were police waiting on the side of the road or not. Probably not. Why would they wait for the light to turn green to block the road? I just remember advancing in the tunnel and looking in the mirror, there were police car blocking the road behind me.
But I bet it was something like that. No idea why it was so urgent for me to get out of there.
Two.
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I dreamt of a weird building that was a glass building. It was sort of like a barn and some parts were on rollers to like… Let the building open up? Just an odd dream. Nothing scary or exciting, but the building was neat. Within the next few days, I stumbled across a random video on YouTube (pre 2008) and there was the exact same glass building house barn. I watched it a little and they did a walk through, everything was exactly my dream. I fucking transcended physically and went to go do something else. It was just too weird.
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I was like 9 or so and was going to bed. My bed was against the front end of the trailer home by the window. Making this short, a fucking human hand slowly rose up from below the window. I thought it was outside. I stared at it for a bit. It did not move. It didn’t do anything just like… Stayed there. A hand (with arm) like someone was reaching up from below. After a bit of staring and nothing happening, I wanted to see if it was real or if I was hallucinating. I quickly poked at it. I FELT IT. and watched it get pushed back from my poke before returning to the same position. I ran the hell out of my room and slept in the living room. At the time I was a lone foster child living with a single older woman who was extremely serious and treated me like a burden. No way she was messing with me and she even got mad that I slept in the living room. No windows were open and all perimeter doors locked. That haunted me for a while. I’m not a supernatural believer but also cannot manage to draw an explanation other than the fact that I was a young child going through a significantly stressful situation with nobody around me that I knew.
Is the video still up?
I actually tried looking for it like a year later but couldn’t find it. When it showed up originally it was just on my feed which was also super out of place. I’ve given attempts here and there but no luck, probably since more than a billion videos have been uploaded from there to here. I’ll give it another quick search. If you don’t see the link, I haven’t found it.
E: OK so this is not THE video, but I’m pretty sure that this is the house. I remember it being a like… House with wheels where the roof moves, there were two levels. And lots of glass. Pretty sure this is the house, but again, the exact video would have been legitimately over 15 years old.
E2: forgot the link
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The human mind is a weird thing. That second one sounds like a very convincing hallucination to me, even feeling the hand. It could be you were in between that state of awake and asleep, it definitely sounds like the kind of thing someone who has had sleep paralysis experiences.
As a result of narcolepsy, I regularly dream while half awake (think while you’re falling asleep or waking up). It can sometimes be hard to remember whether something happened in a dream or in real life when in that state.
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I was walking home at maybe 11 pm on a spring night in Cambridge MA probably 2013-ish - along Broadway down in Kendall square where it meets Ames street. I saw a man in his late fifties maybe early sixties in a business suit run across the street when the light was green. He fell in the middle of the road near the side I was on (this has two lanes each way or did at that time) and stood up right as two cars sped by him on either side. Neither car slowed at all like they saw him and he got to the sidewalk where I was standing. I had stopped and I was maybe five feet from him and asked “hey are you ok?!?” He looked at me and then just took off running down a walking path that continues to cross between blocks.
It was the oddest thing, like other people were walking on the sidewalk and should have seen this guy almost get killed but it was like I was the only one who saw this.
I don’t know if you believe in them but what if you saw a ghost?
Yeah I am generally skeptical of ghosts but I honestly have no explanation for this event, it was so odd. Who knows - just really weird.
Some people have such a weak presence that most people simply don’t see them.
When I was growing up I was at my grandmother’s house out in the woods, she had land on a hill so the sky was pretty visible and usually very clear at night. The stars were easy to spot. One particular night I was looking down her driveway when I saw the entire sky light up green. It turns out meteorites burning up in the atmosphere can turn the whole sky green suddenly, but I didn’t know that at the time and it freaked me out bad.
At least we live in an age where you can find out what happened relatively easily. Imagine seeing that in the 1500’s
DMT before the NMT was purged from it while I was on break at Taco Bell.
Strange doesn’t even begin to describe it.
SameSameButDifferent… DMT after all purging was done and final product.
But that’s just plain regular magnificent! NMT puts you into the weirdest state. I’m pretty sure it’s a heavy disassociative.
Saw a TR 3B hovering above a Boeing hangar (?) outside of Boeing Field in south Seattle.
Edit: Specifically, the building labelled Boeing 9-101 on google maps, which is apparently technically in Tukwila.
Woke up with vertigo. Had to basically lay there with my eyes closed not moving for probably 10 minutes because every tiny movement felt like I was gonna throw up.
I had that happen to me too.
I hear it’s a derangement in your balancing thing, in your inner ear. Chunks of stuff or sticky hairs or something.
I was afraid it was permanent but it came and went over a couple days and then went away.
I don’t know if I can be certain about what event takes the top spot:
Being on shrooms and seeing myself in the mirror
Coming to on a pool floaty after seeming to lose consciousness underwater
The visual phenomena that precede fainting
Outer body experience once while walking through my neighborhood. Sudden sensation of flying upward while looking down before I shook it off.
They say that everybody experiences stuff like that. Out of body. ESP. Precognition. Ghosts etc. The trick is to get control over it. (See “The Yoga Aphorisms of Patanjali” for more on that.)
But it doesn’t fit into the popular narrative, so we don’t talk about it. We call it “hallucination”. Now get back to work.
If this kind of stuff exists, but we ignore it, we must be crazy.
Your mom
