a lot of the time, i’m either busy doing something where i literally cannot respond or overstimulated.

when i’m overstimulated, i physically cannot talk or barely register what someone’s saying. i also have trouble understanding out loud speech for some reason, where i’m listening but can’t process the words.

when my sister asks or says something, i often ask her to repeat it because it’s a lot of information. she says something like “never mind, you don’t care anyway, it’s not important” when i ask to be repeated.

she doesn’t care when i told her why i need it to be repeated.

she also thinks i’m mad at her all the time, gets frustrated when i don’t talk (because im incapable), and starts talking badly about herself when i don’t laugh at her humor (which consists of loud screeching and tiktok “brainrot” words)

since then, i decided to feign laughter so she’ll not think i’m upset with her.

i do try to be there for my sister, but there’s times where i cannot or just can’t talk.

  • tetris11@lemmy.ml
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    7 hours ago

    There was this really great podcast (whose name escapes me now) about a therapist who deals with serial killers, and some come from rich background and some come from poor backgrounds, and some were beaten by their carers and some weren’t beaten at all. No particular trigger or remorse for why they did what they did, just a vague sense of curiosity

    One thing a lot of them did have in common though is neglect. You could have a kid who is completely pampered from the moment they’re born, but if they never receive any love or meaningful attention, any visible sign that their thoughts and feelings are valid, and that they’re not just a visitor in their own world, then that continual act of neglect is greater than any kind of physical abuse they might get.

    So, um, yeah… your post just, uh, yeah. Yep.